“There’s nothing more that I can say but on a day like today, I pass the time away and walk a quiet mile with you.” ~ Led Zeppelin’s ‘Out on the Tiles’ from Led Zeppelin’s III
Lately, I’ve had too much stuff in my head. I used to write/blog over at myspace YEARS ago, but got out of the habit. Facebook came along, and while it has a feature to write longer posts…I just don’t…and then relatives joined facebook and just, no. A few friends always enjoyed my writing and encouraged me to continue, but it was mostly a way to dumptruck my head.
It’s been a tough few weeks. Actually the year has been rough. I lost my father-in-law in March, had to put my black cat (Jasper, love of my life) down, had surgery (which was and is a whole other life-altering mega-ordeal for me) on July 18th, lost my grandfather-in law, and then my other cat (Mickey Blue Eyes, a pain in the ass, but he was beautiful) died. Right now, I’m annoyed with my weight. I’m not overweight, but I am out of shape and things just don’t fit me well. I have a sugar addiction that needs to end. I started the year with the C25K program, and I ran til the end of April. I quit because I hate it. I mean HATE it…with a side of laziness. But, I need to do something again. I’m also annoyed at the state of my home. I need to go through mounds of paperwork, and everything needs a good scrub. I’m hosting a party in early January, and this will motivate me to de-clutter, file paperwork, shred old documents/junk mail, and clean carpets. I would also like to paint some rooms, but that’s probably the farthest thing down the list. In April (actually I need to check the date), I have a themed party/fundraiser to attend, and I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to rock that dress I bought. That dress will motivate me to get a decent tan (which I never bother with, but just this once I think I will) and toned arms and legs. I was so envious of Mercy last year being the ‘Cigar Girl’…oh, how I’d love to play that role. After a few drinks, of course. I’m quite shy, but with a few drinks, I can play a role much easier.
Every December I do this….I start thinking ahead about the new year and a new way to be (neater, more fit, more organized, more talented). Last December I decided to start running (see previous paragraph) and to learn knitting. I still knit, although I’m still very beginner-ish. Maybe for the new year I will concentrate on fitness, try to learn the guitar or the piano, and work on a new wardrobe. (I love jeans and tee-shirts, but I’m learning that people really do judge appearances…and while that totally sucks and isn’t fair, it’s just the cold hard truth. I need to coordinate and accessorize more, too.)
Enough of looking forward for the moment. Presently, I have a vehicle in the shop, again, I cannot fit into my jeans, and I have an elderly dog. All these things bring me down. I’m generally an upbeat person and simple things make me happy. I’m just a little stressed at work during this busy season. I weigh the same, why do my jeans not fit? Re-distribution of weight? I can’t fit into my jeans, yet here I am drinking ‘the coffee’ (which is sugar, ice cream, milk, and creamer). I cannot avoid vehicle maintenance and I cannot roll back time for my lovely dog. I can sip coffee, however…and I can write. And it was SO DIFFICULT to find a username which was not taken.
Anyway, immdiate goals: step up the squat routine, start the bicep workout, and get on the treadmill. Also, shred some old crap paperwork.